Laura Fortune

Did you blush then, when our hips touched? I can’t tell, we are already red.

landscapes September 12, 2009

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Laura Fortune, years 0-12: Farm, forest, fauna. Gravel roads. Baby blue skies. The big dipper. Owls and whipper-wills.

Laura Fortune, years 12-14: The Highway. Loud music. Slight confusion. Tense. Unforgiving. Fast.

Laura Fortune, years 14-18: Deserts. Cliffs. Rockface. Caves. Scorpions. Stalactites. Darkness. But the wind on her back was exhilarating.

Laura Fortune, years 18-20: Prairie. Soft, sweet grasses. An emergence. Relaxation. Ease. Peacefulness. Such sweet sleep.

Laura Fortune, years 21-?: She lives on the Sea.

 

Bullshit things that I think are awesome and I want August 29, 2009

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A 25 Pack of true to size (and smell) Gummy Bear soap!

a hoodie with a special beer-pouch pocket. :D Totally silly, and awesome

The perfect hair accessory

But this one’s bigger and slightly more awesome

By now, you are realizing I really like hair combs.

I am also officially a bridesmaid in Heather’s wedding, although it remains to be seen if I am the maid of honor. I am, of course, the bridal stylist. :D Possibly make-up artist as well, and I might also act as a photographer just for kicks.
I’m excited.
I get to play dress up.
:D
:D

Yours,
Laura F.

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(this is for me)
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http://www.idressonline.com/plus-size-dresses_c_72.html

http://www.idressonline.com/Alyce-Strapless-Charmeuse-Dress_p_1285.html
want want want want want!!! Ahhhhh!

http://www.idressonline.com/Alyce-Taffeta-Embroidered-Appliques-Gown_p_1286.html

http://www.idressonline.com/Terani-Couture-Halter-Tiered-Ruffles-Dress-_p_1317.html

 

My awesome family. August 11, 2009

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Bedtime. August 6, 2009

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NEW LINKS PAGE OMG LOOK AT IT

 

What’s up, reliable internet? August 5, 2009

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Awesome.
I can update this piece of shit without worrying that my posts will be lost in space! It has happened to me a few times. Write a post, hit the publish button, and then get ther “WTFZ MAN! ERROR: your internet has failed and that’s that!”

Fail no more!

I am happy where I am. With what surrounds me.
I’m just sad to see so many relationships unravel all at the same time. Not just with myself, but with other friends as well.
Have you noticed (and maybe it’s just me) everyone is moving?
Me, Becky, Kyle, Cody, my uncle Pat, my boyfriend’s roommate, and good old Ernie. Everyday this week I’ve seen people at my old complex moving things in an out. Everyday this week I’ve seen people at my new complex moving things out. Where the hell are we all going? What are we all doing?
We’re all ending stagnant jobs in hope to find something better. It seems everyone, everywhere is just fucking ’stuck.’

But this is life, and I’m not complaining.
Now that I am safe and secure with all my new-ness, I’m wondering what I can do next.
New boyfriend, new home, new family.
New job ventures, new hair, new routine.
Old interests have become new.
Old belongings have new purpose.

Everything is cosmically rearranging.

Do you see it, too?
I think we all may be preparing for something huge.

:]

With a full heart,
- Laura F.

 

:D July 31, 2009

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Uhm, yeah.
Sorry about that.
I had a crazy spell.

Enjoy me being cute, below!
Too lazy to rotate, so give your neck some exercise.

 

and the water rolls down the drain July 31, 2009

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My stomache is upset.
John Hiatt is singing into my ears.
“Cry Love”
So many memories packed into a four minute song.

I’m starting my own “business.”
I suppose it’s legit, but it feels funny. A good kind of funny. A successful? funny.
I pray for abundance. To live the life I want so badly. An independent one. Self-sufficient.
I have everything else I want and need. I’m lacking just that one thing, the imaginary comfort of bundles of cash. I never wanted to be this way.
Kyle and I made a foolish agreement when we were young. It involved a mutual promise to never be so money-hungry and materialistic.. I sound and act like I’m getting there pretty quickly, but the reality is that I’m just trying to survive.

I’ve been sick lately.
Feverish.
Tremble-y.

Nervous.
e x c i t e d
Anxious.

Am I spelling things wrong? I’m so tired that all these words look funny, but I won’t sleep. I feel the urge, the flow of conciousness is trying to get out. God forbid I let myself speak. It finds its way out of my fingertips.
I never speak.
Somewhere along the way I learned that it’s best to not say what you want. How? When? Why?
How do I make it stop? As if telling someone what I want is going to hurt their feelings.. Ridiculous.
I remain decisionless because, somehow, my brain tells me it’s better if I go along with what you want. What anyone wants, really. If you plan it for me, I will do it. You want me to? Okay. It doesn’t matter if I want to, right? You all have better judgement. You all know better. I’m so new to everything, and all those who surround me are veterans.
I sound completely crazy.
This is what goes through my head every day, and I believe it.
Do you see the pattern?
And for the most part, (and this is the scariest part) it works and it’s true.

Apparently, everyone knows better. I must be a real fucking idiot.

Smoke this. – …Okay.
Drink this. – I will.
Dance to this. – Sure.
You drive this time. – Again..? Okay.
Move in with him. – Good idea.
Don’t do it, go home. – Well, okay.
Quit your job. – ..Okay. I’ll do it.
Find a new one. – I’m trying.
Start over. – Done deal.
Start from scratch. – There’s no other way.
Pay her back. – Of course.
Pay him back. – Absolutely.
Pay the bank back. – Okay.
Call your mom. – I will.
Say your prayers. – I still do.
Stay the night. – I’d love to.
Sleep at home tonight. – I can do that.
Clean your car. – First thing tomorrow.
Pack your stuff. – Okay.
Go make money. – Okay.
Sell yourself for more. – Well, I guess you’re right.
Save your money. – I can.
Buy yourself something nice. – Sure.
Go get some new shoes. – Good idea.
Listen to this music. – It’s wonderful.
Listen, and love it. – I can love it if you want me to.
Pick up that pencil. – Okay..
Sharpen your shears. – Yes, I will.
Make art. – Yes.
Make-over. – Wonderful.
Make up. Be friends. – I can do that.
Don’t cry. – I’ll try not to.
Come over. – As soon as I can.
Be my friend. – I always will be.
Go fuck yourself. – Are you sure..? Okay.
Stay lonely. – Fine.
Stay out of my life. – Alright, okay.
Come back to me. – I’m coming.
Come back! – I’m back!

I don’t think any of this is bad.
I’m just noticing the trend, and it’s scary to me.
I’m fairly certain I’ve always been this pliable. Must be something my parents accidentally taught me. Goddamn conditioning. Fuck you, psychology.
“Do my bidding!” I think I’d make an excellent minion.

 

July 24, 2009

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I just had a thought. A memory. What did you want to be when you were little? Okay, now that youve got that, throw it away and ask yourself again. I told my parents I wanted to be a waitress, a farmer, an archeologist. What did I really secretly want to do? I wanted to design puppets. I wanted to be the next Henson. I wanted to build them, mold them, paint them, put little gears and wires through them, sew their hair on, their feathers on, give them names and stories. I wanted to operate them and give them a fantasy life, make movies like The Labyrinth and shows like The Muppets. I was excited about the science and mechanics involved and undaunted by the infinite amount of art and imagination required. Now that Im grown, I am saddend to see those giant living sculptures die off and Im wondering that had I gone into that industry if I could have had a hand in rescuing it. Just a thought. Am I destined to influence anything?

 

The End. July 19, 2009

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Really? Are you sure..?

I don’t want you to be so certain, even if I already know it’s overdue.
No more trips to Indiana? Really? Won’t you miss me? Who will stay in my bedroom? Who will stay up and clean after you’ve passed out? Who will be there to make sure you don’t do anything reckless?  Who will sit beside the locked bathroom door and coax you to come out before you fall asleep on the floor? Who will stay up and watch stupid movies and eat box after box of Rice a Roni with you? Who will be “the other car”?No more group vacations? No more camping trips for me? No more spending hours watching you play video games?  No more making “Laura” on the Sims?
No more Evita and Rent twice a year?   Are you sure?

Who will you talk to when Cody’s driving you off the wall? Who will I talk to?
What does that mean I will have to call you?
“My ex-best-friend”
“My best-friend-growing-up”
“My good old friend Kyle, yeah, we used to be attatched at the hip. But we grew up and grew apart and we changed. Both of us did. But we were sure as hell good together. We had an unbelievable friendship, the kind you find in movies rather than in real life.”

I have been destroyed. Rattled.
I am hysterical. Unreal. Unfair, but so timely.
I give up. You’re right. It’s been over, and I am so upset and angry and hurt and I’m writing backwards and my tears are rolling and I’m snuffling away.

I loved you so much.

There will never be another you. You will never find another me.
We’re both going to feel so empty now.

Only friendship-love and boyfriend-love, no more epic-and-so-much-more-meaningful-”us”-love.

_____________________________________

“Its strange. Since you moved to Lisle…I have not really wanted to be around you. At first it was okay…but each time I saw you, you become someone that was not completely you.”

 

Ghost Stories ft. Kyle’s House June 30, 2009

It is a well known fact in my social circle that Kyle’s house is haunted.

Kyle’s house sits in the very southwestern edge of New Lenox, almost in the country town of Manhattan, IL. Prior to 1996, his neighborhood, like most of the area, was all farm land.

I grew up in an older neighborhood not far from his. When the “city people” started moving out to the suburbs, the first place they started building new houses was around our neighborhood. We lived in a small neighborhood that was made up of only six streets, and by the time we moved, there were two cookie cutter neighborhoods built directly around ours. It looked pretty stupid. All of these homes were decently large, all of which were 2 and 3 stories, but in the center of the neighborhood were these old low ranches with more yard apiece.

Anyway, when they started building these houses, I would go exploring. They’d overturned all the farm land, and literally everything under the thin soil was clay. This was good for me, being a little kid. The rain would create huge rifts in the clay hills, and I’d jump over them, pretending I was an archeologist. It was an alien terrain full of secrets. One day my sister discovered a cluster of indian arrow heads in our neighbors backyard. I was so excited to hear that news, and I immediately ran out to the under-construction neighborhoods and dug up my own collection. Soon after, and four blocks away, Kyle’s neighborhood went up.

Now I’m not sure when all of this began, but it has been an ongoing thing for as long as I’ve known him. I first started hanging out with him at this house during or freshmen year in high school and he confided in me that he thought his house was.. “weird.” There have been very odd things happen in his home that are not unlike any other story: lights going on and off, TVs turning on by themselves, whispers and nonexistant people are heard talking, and general feelings of ill-will. The center of the activity comes from the upstairs spare bedroom.
Kyle’s dogs would not go in that room, and when they did, it was to bark at the walls. Kyle has heard its doors open and close by themselves, and has seen it in action once before.

One night I was going to sleep over, and I was a little afraid. It was 4:30am, and I needed to get up at 8am for work. (Dumb, I know.) Everyone was asleep upstairs, and I was going to crash on the couch, all alone on the main floor. I opted to put in the DVD of Titantic, so I could fall asleep to it and wake up at to watch the end. I thought it was clever, plus is gave me some background noise so I couldn’t think about ghosts. Before I layed down, I turned off the fan and turned on the lights. When I woke up, the lights were off and the fan was on, exactly the opposite, and not only had my movie been turned off, but I was lying there listen to the Motown music station. At some point during that night I also woke up because of a curious event. I woke up, wide awake, because I heard a huge, distinct cracking noise, like someone had taken a branch of a tree and snapped it right above my head. A month or so after, his mom fell asleep on the same couch and awoke because of the same experience.

One night we were in his basement, home alone, and we heard the dog barking frantically. Worried that there were burglers or something, we both bolted upstairs only to find the dog hiding under the coffee table, ferociously barking at a TV that had turned itself on.

Two summers ago, a group of us were hanging out in the office and it was about 1:30am. The doors were closed because we were smoking, and we weren’t supposed to be smoking in the house because his sister was pregnant at the time. Kyle got up to get a drink, and when we opened the office doors, he heard something. He described two men talking to each other, which stopped when the door opened. We all huddled together, Kyle included, in the office with the doors closed. I noticed a cool breeze coming in under the door, strong enough for it to blow out my lighter when I tested it. Freaked out, we all left, except Kyle. I called him from my car to apologize, and I heard, behind his voice in the phone, two other men mumbling in the rhythm of coversation.

Kyle has heard unexplainable music and the smell of insence coming from the living room area.

Kyle’s little sister now has a baby boy, the cutest little fucker ever, named Landon. Landon’s room is the oddball spare bedroom. When he was just a few months old, there was a strange repeated incident that occured with the baby monitors. This story freaks me out just remembering it. Me, Kyle,  Kyle’s boyfriend Cody, and Kyle’s mom were  the only ones home that night. Elyse was out, so Kyle’s mom was babysitting Landon. He  had been asleep peacefully and quietly for a long time, until about midnight. Kyle’s mom was in the living room. Me, Kyle, and Cody were in the office when Kyle’s mom burst in, frantic.

“You have got to come listen to this monitor! There’s something upstairs.”

So we walked out into the living room, where the baby monitor was, and sure enough, there was a heavy, steady breathing coming out of the thing. You could hear Landon alseep in it as well, with his little baby hiccups and soft gargeling, and there was loud ragged breathing over his. We all stood in shock, listening, for a long time. Kyle thought maybe the monitor was on the wrong channel, that maybe we were hearing and older kid on someone else’s monitor, but after switching through channels of static, that was not the case. That night, someone was in the room with Landon. Kyle bravely went upstairs to check on him. We heard the door open, we heard the weird breathing stop, we heard Kyle walking, we heard him close the door, and that was that. There wasn’t a damn thing upstairs.

Landon still sleeps in that room, and he is almost two now. He’s starting to talk. He knows a few colors, he knows everyone’s names, he knows the names of food.. You know, things that are important to babies. He also knows the word “monsters” and he, very recently, as in last week, told his mom there were monsters in his room. Here’s how it happened: Landon told Elyse there are monsters. She asked where, he pointed at his room. She asked if there were more than one, and he said yes. He told his mom he tells them to go away. Trying  to change the subject, Elyse asks Landon if he wants her to rub his hair. (It’s relaxing, right? =D) He says, “No, people.” and rubs his own head. Elyse asks what he means, and he says “People, Landon’s hair” and makes the same rubbing gesture. Elyse asks what people, and he tells her, “the monsters.” WTF? SERIOUSLY? Here’s a kid who is not even two having ghosts rub his head while he’s asleep.

There’s a million more stories, but I’m done for now. –Laura F